Companion... हमसफ़र

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हमसफ़र और कोई नहीं साथ अपने हूँ खुद मैं ही हर सफर है मेरा ही नक़्शे-कदम यूँ ही चुन लूँ	Companionship overrated My own company underrated Each journey sacred is mine alone Choose each step with intention
हमकदम दूसरा नहीं अलहदा भी तो कोई नहीं हर कदम है पसंद मेरी खुद ही आप से मिलूँ	In-step with no other I see An all-encompassing eternity Each stride of my own volition Merging within without condition
हमनशीं हर कोई यहीं इस पल का नशा ही है सही है मेरे लिए हर ये खुशी उसे क्यों ना नज़र उतार लूँ	Each co-traveler, a soul beloved Each moment, itself bewitched Each joy, one I cherish Each embraced, in wholehearted satisfaction
-Nov 23, 2017	-Jan 18, 2019

Of fluorescent greens and magical scenes

  

Stately 

Mutely

Subtly

Totally

Lining

A warm welcome 

Holy

Inviting

Shimmering 

Glittering 

Murmuring 

Whispering

Sweet nothings 

From an ancient past

Gurgling 

Laughing

Dancing

Skipping

Meandering, yet

In full flow

Picking it's own unique path

Flapping 

Chirping 

Rustling

Crunching

Each step leading 

Playing its part

Each sound speaks

The language 

Of the heart

Leaves of Fluorescent green

An azure sheen

On waters pristine

Such magical scenes

Making one keen

To closely seek

That kaleidoscope within

Felt somewhat...

Yet not fully seen!

- September 6, 2017

From explorations of The Cascade Loop, WA

Evaporation...

 

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I resist

I order it 

To cease and desist

Yet...

It chooses to persist 

A sharp jab

Knifing through

Piercing 

Twisting

Writhing

Within this hollow shell

My abode

This palace of cards

Agonizing shards

This pent-up hell

At some point I thought

It would surely halt

But it grew with an aching onslaught

Suffering mode on default

Until I decided 

To be true and begin

To explore why it resided

So deep within

A dull ache persistent

A heavy heart insistent

I search and examine

Is there deep rooted anger

Underneath this pain?

Angst like a dagger

I'm choosing to retain?

So much to explain 

So much to gain

Some demons to slain 

Oh heart! 

Thee to train 

That it is okay

To display

To bare and to share

To wake mySelf aware

To find my own way

To let the eyes brim

Over, to wash

Away hurts I want to stash

Allow the aching to dim

To let go, surrender 

In the arms of my seraphim

Sometimes there's 

Solace in solitude 

Though often I find

When I'm willing to be kind

Enough to myself

To embrace Love

Freely offered 

To dissolve this outer shell

To let my nakedness spell

Out my vulnerabilities

My heart does remind

All is wholly aligned

Through this Holy Immersion

I reach the inevitable inversion 

To equanimity 

To the eventual 

Evaporation

Of Emotion

- 4/23/17

A Reminder...

A Reminder... Pause!

When you're always in a hurry

If your heart is filled with worry

When the lines get blurry

If you witness some flashes of fury

Pause.

Pause my dear

Stop!

And rest, right here

When the world around seems dreary

Shoulders stooped and weary

The eyes perhaps bleary

Or even maybe teary

Pause.

Pause my dear

Rest right here

In that lap Divine

Sip

Of a sweet, fresh breath

Savoring each bit

Filling yourSelf

To the brim

Drink

Of that infinite fountain

That is YOU

Dance

To the tune

That only you can hear

Whirl and twirl

Soak in

That depth of Silence

Drown in

The ecstasy

The elixir

Find yourSelf

Find your Bliss

Deep within

 - 9/30/16

अनन्त, अनन्य | Infinite, Inimitable...

कुछ अधूरे पन्ने थे यही अक्षर बन रही थी स्याही कुछ अध् लिखे से बोल थे कुछ अध् बुने से ख्याल ना गलत ना सही	A few incomplete pages Ink forming letters in different stages Some unfinished lyrics perhaps A few unspoken thoughts with gaps Neither right nor wrong Who knew where they really belong
वे सफ़े बह  चुके हैं  आज ख़्वाहिशों के महल  ढह चुके हैं  आज	Those pages have evaporated today The palace of desires  Has crumbled like clay
ना कल से था ना कल से होगा अब कोई लगाव	Yesterday melted away Tomorrow’s sway has no say Attachment at bay
कोरे से कागज़ का ये पड़ाव इसी पल के रस का ऐसा खिंचाव	This blank canvas is a perfect pit-stop Making this very moment pop
अनन्त अनन्य आनन्द का ऐसा भाव शून्यता का प्रभाव कृतज्ञ अश्रुओं का  बहाव	Infinite Inimitable Joyous Bliss This hollow emptiness Gratitude that flows Just as it arises

- July 31, 2016

A Fractured Life

Messages…

So many messages

From a young age

At every possible stage

Bombarding me

Do this, but not that

Be like this, oh not that!

I was taught

To listen

To learn

To obey

Repercussions of failure

Filled me with dismay

Yes

There was love

There was joy

The usual ups and downs

They looked at me

With adoration, admiration

But I also noticed all the frowns

The acquisition

Of money, power, status, fame

I had to win

At this one and only game

I built my palace

In a new land of dreams

Brick by brick

Burying my inner voice

Layer by layer

Ignoring its desperate screams

Days and nights

Of incessant toils

Bringing home the spoils

Of stories weaved with care

How could I dare

To let the mask slip?

And then poof!

It all came crashing down
Burning and twisting my insides

The carnage spilling over

The end of that story

The fame and reflected glory

Was it

My race?

My religion?

My identity?

My beliefs or my capacity

To mutate

To fit in at all costs

To assimilate

What could make

This pain abate

What I wouldn't spend

To get out of this state

Or

Should I simply end

This Fractured Life?

And then I found

I had to lose it all

To hear that sound

Weak though it was

It was certainly still around

It took work

It took stillness

To unlearn unsee unhear

Old voices, old stories

Develop the courage to listen

A regular practice

To rechristen

My own story

As my songs of Union

Became the Voice

Heard-unheard

Seen-unseen

Felt, tasted, melted

And the me emptied unto the Me

The 'i' transformed into I

That encompassed all of infinity

I simply knew

A fractured life

In re-Union

Each moment

Is made whole anew

- January 27, 2016, Seattle

Grief

It pours in

Fills up to the brim

Overflows

On to already

Wet cheeks

Questions

With no answers

Senseless actions

The ending of lives

In ways

Incomprehensible

What is this strange

Human condition?

No answers

Just prayers

For Peace

And Healing

So we go back

To really feeling

The deep Love

We're made of

- 2014